Sunday, June 22, 2008
hypocrite
Wow today I sound like an image obsessed pig. I just ate my weight in food. Pasta carrots salad and brownies with strawberries and frozen yogurt. YUM. But i probably just put on a couple pounds. I don't remember the last time I ate that much and felt completely full. Its weird. I think about food so much because I don't want to eat too much but then i end up eating more. Its ridiculous and totally not a good tactic. I hate being image/body obsessed but ever since I got into modeling, I compare myself to people on the street and I say "If I want to be good at what I do I need to look better than EVERYONE else". Then i end up obsessed and disappointed for all the wrong reasons. I mean I just want to love my body and everything about it no matter how many curves i have. I'm usually a very accepting person, but how can i be accepting of other people when i can't except myself?
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4 comments:
thats horrible! gaah i'm a guy but in middle school i used to be chubby so i like stopped eating and lost a bunch of weight before high school. its not healthy but i know the force that drives you.
mind over matter! chances are, if you obsess about gaining weight then it will happen. try to keep your focus more on your exercise, like how much you walked today. take the stairs instead of the elevator and then use that to balance out your thoughts.
well, i dont think one meal like that now and then will do you too much harm - especially with a bit of excercise! I think most people are concerned about how they look - the industry your in demands perfection, guess its something you models just have to get used to it - BUT DONT LET IT RULE YOUR WORLD! :)
Come have a read of the rubbish I have to say :)
jeffrey zed is right...it's mind over matter! but i'm sure you want advice from me....the person who forgot she was on weight watchers :o) I'm not the best cook either, but i have a few easy recipes i can send to you. I have one for low fat cinnamon french toast with sauteed bananas. yummy.
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